Betwixt and Between
I love watching the Olympics and this year I especially enjoyed the relay races. God has brought those images to mind several times during these last few weeks. As Founder and President of Truth for Women (http://www.truthforwomen.org/), I had the precious joy and privilege of running the first leg of the race. Several weeks ago, my race came to an end and it was time to pass the baton. It was seized passionately and successfully and off "my girls" Jessie and Kim went. As happens in a relay race, their pace increased and mine slowed. Now, I am standing and watching them take off without me. I am filled with excitement for them, I am cheering them on in their race, and I am left wondering what I am suppose to do next.
Tomorrow my husband leaves to drive to Chattanooga, TN to begin his new adventure with the Lord as the Executive Director of Precept Ministries. Tomorrow morning, I will stand and watch him drive off. I am and will be filled with excitement for him and cheer him on in his new adventure. And, I will be left wondering what I am suppose to do next.
It's called betwixt and between. Sure, absolutely - there is a ton of stuff to do while betwixt and between. All important and necessary stuff like show and sell the house, clean out all the "accumulation," get medical records, pack up the belongings, and so on. But today as I stand in this betwixt and between place and I think of watching my husband take off without me and I see "my girls" taking off without me, old feelings and new feelings come flooding into my mind. And, I ask myself: How often have I been overwhelmed by the flood of feelings produced by the ups and downs of life? My answer: Too often!
For so many years, what I felt was my truth. Today, I understand that if what I feel does not line up with the truth from the Word of God then it's a lie straight from the pit of hell designed to discourage, destroy and/or rob me of living in the center of God's will for my life right here, right now - even in the midst of the betwixt and between. I cannot deny my feelings but I can put them into perspective - God's perspective. So, I can choose to TAKE UP the Word of God and USE it to "fight these feelings!" Will I?
Your testimonies also are my delight; They are my counselors. Psalm 119:24